yaaawwn

ohh.. i just took the best nap.. and the my dad spoiled it by barging in and turning on the light and telling me to get out of his room... the jerkface. so now im sitting here all wrapped up in this warm fleece blanket.. moping around the house while phoebe chases me... i thought my headache would go away by a nap but it seems that it just erupted... now my head wont stop pounding and i think its off beat.. last exam tomorrow... then no more highschool!!!! OMG!! NO MORE!! im graduating in two days... yeeesssssss {{{shaking my fist at the physcics book}}} take that you son of a bitch!oh my head...

Test, test?BAM!...

Test, test?BAM!

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this weekends been the greatest. i went to the talent show. won a ribbon. Yay! but sadly i missed david's party due to the thing lasting forever and a day.. sorry david!! happy birthday!!! um.. well then patrick was sick sooo he had to go home.. but saturday was awesome. mandii and i applied for several jobs in the mall including Hagan Daas, Suncoast, the Icing and Body Shop. perhaps i may get one of them but i doubt it. i might apply for the movie gallery or blockbluster near my house.. who knows. then i went to meet Poetry PLayers for dinner at olive garden. that was hilarious. malinda is crazy. we got pictures of us moshing. you know... cause we're hardcore and all.. yeh and then mrs lee read us a story about stars and i was thinking.. awe how emo! phhhttt.. then me and patrick hung out and thats always fun. today... which by the way.. im sorry i write one post for like 3 days. im really gonna try to post everyday from now on.. i just have to be in that mood or something. but anyway.. today... i had a recital which was kind of boring but i showed off with my mad piano skills.. all those 8 year olds didnt have a chance. there was only 4 of us who were above the age of 12. i felt so corny. oh well.. then i went to patricks and felt real dumb hanging by his door with my stupid recital dress on .. and then him and cavan and david come driving up and im thinking.. crap.. i look like an idiot. SIGH.then for an hour.. which was suppose to be 10 minutes... me and patrick hung out and awwwe i love him. so now im back here TRYING to study but to no avail. i have a physics and government test tomorrow and im to the point of slamming down a book and screaming FUCK IT cause im going to college in three months and the fact that i know about translucent light waves and expatriatism doesnt really fucking matter!!!!!!!! GYAD! excuse me while i unleash my rage.

i just r...

i just realized that quizzes suck and waste my precious and valuable time as a human being...

boredom although i should be studying?

ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS USING THE LYRICS OF ONE BAND OR SONGWRITER: hey wait... im a songwriter?? yeh. 1. ARE YOU MALE OR FEMALE? don’t forget that I’m your girl2. DESCRIBE YOURSELF:I stare into the mirror and see myself screaming.But I don’t hear a sound.3. HOW DO OTHERS FEEL ABOUT YOU?I stare down at my feet that scuff the floor of the crowded halls.People pass by nudging the side of my shoulder.Not even caring.But I do not mind.Because it is my fault.5. DESCRIBE YOUR GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND:A smile curls faintly on my face.As the thought of you drips into my space.Daydreaming… love streaming… I’m in a daze.Delirious, unwound, unscrewedYou’re like a drug I’m addicted to…My eyes seem like they’re staring, glaringInto oblivion… but I see you…6. WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER BE DOING?you can find me...I’m here…under the stars…under the twilight of the moon…under the blue blanket of the sky…7. DESCRIBE WHERE YOU LIVE: Sitting alongside my heart, within the crumpled garbage and damaged debris8. DESCRIBE HOW YOU LOVE:It’s a miracle. The love they hold is as pure as silver and rarer than gold. It’s a wonder. The look in their eyes, when they see each other, is so hard to find.It’s the miracle of their life.9. SHARE A FEW WORDS OF WISDOM:be freenever be ridiculed, judged or analyzedbe who you are

long week

ahhh... well this weekend was crazy. i was grounded but i still got to go to two concerts... underoath was the best by far.. YEAH I HUGGED DALLAS! wooo... and then patrick met billy joe from green day and we got free tickets... so that was really cool... but my dad was pissed and hes pissing me off with this whole grounding bit... i mean come on... isnt three days enough? i believe soo... ugh well enough about my dad...schools almost out.. yah... ugh but i have stupid exams in two days... but i guess when theyre over ill have no more worries... summer summer summer.. and all im gonna do is sleep.and take classes at jeff state and work.. woohoo freedom! riiightbut i guess its one more step towards college.. towards getting out of my house... towards living on my own... towards not being around my dad.but can i tell you? this weekend is jammed. i have a talent show and davids party and a poetry player dinner and a piano recital. phew .. sleep sounds real good right now.. i think i need it.

AAaaaaOOooooOogggaAAAA

uhhhh... im at work! yeh my dads foundry. im the receptionist today while he gets my car fixed. the a/c squeals, the antena's gone, and the starter doesn't want to start sometimes. but now its getting fixed and do you know what else? i cleaned my car yesterday - spotless. WoW. uhhh but yesterday was not fun. i got grounded from patrick :( for like two whole days!! its awful... i miss him.. and we were gonna see spiderman... but at least my dad is gonna let me see underoath... if i had to miss that i would literally die! ohhhhh... this week was hell!! i can't believe how many f-ing tests i had!! school school school... urrrghhh im so glad its almost over...the other night i got two hours of sleep due to this stupid english project... then when i turned it in.. feeling real proud that i had worked on it for ten hours. she just flipped through and said, "Good." it was only 50 points too... i could have not even done it... it wouldn't have even mattered. stupid stupid Jill. awwwwe... well i found my cat yesterday! it came back! but now we have to give it away... because the neighbors won't let us leave her outside and she isnt a very good inside cat since we have two dogs who like to wrestle with her. but she is soooo cute and loving... if anyone wants a cat tell me cause i have to give it to someone... but ill have to warn you... she likes to sleep on your face and she likes to lick your neck... hahahaha.. that sounds dirty for some reason...awe but shes at work with me right now.. and shes sooo cute.. just purring in my lap.. awwwe oh yeh her name is Zoe.. and she kind of looks like a fox.. shes brown and orange and black and has a bushy tail too.. ill put a picture in here later but im not at my computer im at the one in the office.. anyway... shes really cute.well i better go "work" and "suck up" so im not grounded anymore.. im thinking a few more "yes sir"s will do the trick.. ughhhhhhhh