yaaawwn

ohh.. i just took the best nap.. and the my dad spoiled it by barging in and turning on the light and telling me to get out of his room... the jerkface. so now im sitting here all wrapped up in this warm fleece blanket.. moping around the house while phoebe chases me... i thought my headache would go away by a nap but it seems that it just erupted... now my head wont stop pounding and i think its off beat.. last exam tomorrow... then no more highschool!!!! OMG!! NO MORE!! im graduating in two days... yeeesssssss {{{shaking my fist at the physcics book}}} take that you son of a bitch!oh my head...

Test, test?BAM!...

Test, test?BAM!

thi...

this weekends been the greatest. i went to the talent show. won a ribbon. Yay! but sadly i missed david's party due to the thing lasting forever and a day.. sorry david!! happy birthday!!! um.. well then patrick was sick sooo he had to go home.. but saturday was awesome. mandii and i applied for several jobs in the mall including Hagan Daas, Suncoast, the Icing and Body Shop. perhaps i may get one of them but i doubt it. i might apply for the movie gallery or blockbluster near my house.. who knows. then i went to meet Poetry PLayers for dinner at olive garden. that was hilarious. malinda is crazy. we got pictures of us moshing. you know... cause we're hardcore and all.. yeh and then mrs lee read us a story about stars and i was thinking.. awe how emo! phhhttt.. then me and patrick hung out and thats always fun. today... which by the way.. im sorry i write one post for like 3 days. im really gonna try to post everyday from now on.. i just have to be in that mood or something. but anyway.. today... i had a recital which was kind of boring but i showed off with my mad piano skills.. all those 8 year olds didnt have a chance. there was only 4 of us who were above the age of 12. i felt so corny. oh well.. then i went to patricks and felt real dumb hanging by his door with my stupid recital dress on .. and then him and cavan and david come driving up and im thinking.. crap.. i look like an idiot. SIGH.then for an hour.. which was suppose to be 10 minutes... me and patrick hung out and awwwe i love him. so now im back here TRYING to study but to no avail. i have a physics and government test tomorrow and im to the point of slamming down a book and screaming FUCK IT cause im going to college in three months and the fact that i know about translucent light waves and expatriatism doesnt really fucking matter!!!!!!!! GYAD! excuse me while i unleash my rage.

i just r...

i just realized that quizzes suck and waste my precious and valuable time as a human being...

boredom although i should be studying?

ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS USING THE LYRICS OF ONE BAND OR SONGWRITER: hey wait... im a songwriter?? yeh. 1. ARE YOU MALE OR FEMALE? don’t forget that I’m your girl2. DESCRIBE YOURSELF:I stare into the mirror and see myself screaming.But I don’t hear a sound.3. HOW DO OTHERS FEEL ABOUT YOU?I stare down at my feet that scuff the floor of the crowded halls.People pass by nudging the side of my shoulder.Not even caring.But I do not mind.Because it is my fault.5. DESCRIBE YOUR GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND:A smile curls faintly on my face.As the thought of you drips into my space.Daydreaming… love streaming… I’m in a daze.Delirious, unwound, unscrewedYou’re like a drug I’m addicted to…My eyes seem like they’re staring, glaringInto oblivion… but I see you…6. WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER BE DOING?you can find me...I’m here…under the stars…under the twilight of the moon…under the blue blanket of the sky…7. DESCRIBE WHERE YOU LIVE: Sitting alongside my heart, within the crumpled garbage and damaged debris8. DESCRIBE HOW YOU LOVE:It’s a miracle. The love they hold is as pure as silver and rarer than gold. It’s a wonder. The look in their eyes, when they see each other, is so hard to find.It’s the miracle of their life.9. SHARE A FEW WORDS OF WISDOM:be freenever be ridiculed, judged or analyzedbe who you are

long week

ahhh... well this weekend was crazy. i was grounded but i still got to go to two concerts... underoath was the best by far.. YEAH I HUGGED DALLAS! wooo... and then patrick met billy joe from green day and we got free tickets... so that was really cool... but my dad was pissed and hes pissing me off with this whole grounding bit... i mean come on... isnt three days enough? i believe soo... ugh well enough about my dad...schools almost out.. yah... ugh but i have stupid exams in two days... but i guess when theyre over ill have no more worries... summer summer summer.. and all im gonna do is sleep.and take classes at jeff state and work.. woohoo freedom! riiightbut i guess its one more step towards college.. towards getting out of my house... towards living on my own... towards not being around my dad.but can i tell you? this weekend is jammed. i have a talent show and davids party and a poetry player dinner and a piano recital. phew .. sleep sounds real good right now.. i think i need it.

AAaaaaOOooooOogggaAAAA

uhhhh... im at work! yeh my dads foundry. im the receptionist today while he gets my car fixed. the a/c squeals, the antena's gone, and the starter doesn't want to start sometimes. but now its getting fixed and do you know what else? i cleaned my car yesterday - spotless. WoW. uhhh but yesterday was not fun. i got grounded from patrick :( for like two whole days!! its awful... i miss him.. and we were gonna see spiderman... but at least my dad is gonna let me see underoath... if i had to miss that i would literally die! ohhhhh... this week was hell!! i can't believe how many f-ing tests i had!! school school school... urrrghhh im so glad its almost over...the other night i got two hours of sleep due to this stupid english project... then when i turned it in.. feeling real proud that i had worked on it for ten hours. she just flipped through and said, "Good." it was only 50 points too... i could have not even done it... it wouldn't have even mattered. stupid stupid Jill. awwwwe... well i found my cat yesterday! it came back! but now we have to give it away... because the neighbors won't let us leave her outside and she isnt a very good inside cat since we have two dogs who like to wrestle with her. but she is soooo cute and loving... if anyone wants a cat tell me cause i have to give it to someone... but ill have to warn you... she likes to sleep on your face and she likes to lick your neck... hahahaha.. that sounds dirty for some reason...awe but shes at work with me right now.. and shes sooo cute.. just purring in my lap.. awwwe oh yeh her name is Zoe.. and she kind of looks like a fox.. shes brown and orange and black and has a bushy tail too.. ill put a picture in here later but im not at my computer im at the one in the office.. anyway... shes really cute.well i better go "work" and "suck up" so im not grounded anymore.. im thinking a few more "yes sir"s will do the trick.. ughhhhhhhh

ahhh

yo. i've just come to the conclusion.. that.. i suck... and that im never gonna get this stupid english project done. and i think i have total add because i keep trying to do homework and i keep moving to other projects instead.. from one thing to the other and i never finish... dammit. ((sigh)) well other than that this weekends been alright.. hung out with mandii and patrick... i went to the senior banquet on friday and sang my song and what-have-you. people said they liked it which made me feel real good. i watched gladiator last night with patrick... it was real good.. i love that movie so much. i also saw the movie riding in cars with boys... that was real good but it made mandii cry... awwwe... i have a stupid choir practice tomorrow and a choir concert tuesday and a make up physics test and a french test and a history test and an english test and an english project and a math test and.. and... then friday we're out!! and i'll be able to breathe ... then i'll scream when i see underoath.. and everything will be dandy. YAY. then two more weeks and no more school for jill. well no more highschool for jill. ...and the crowd goes wild...

wow. prom is t...

wow. prom is today. i got my hair done. and my nails. and im prepared. its gonna be great. i really hope it doesnt rain or if it does.. its only a little bit and not a huge downpour. that would suck. im looking forward to sushi tonight. yeh.. and everything else too. {{sigh}} im just gonna take my precious time in getting ready. i have 2 and half hours. yeah.. im just gonna take my time.

wow. prom is t...

wow. prom is today. i got my hair done. and my nails. and im prepared. its gonna be great. i really hope it doesnt rain or if it does.. its only a little bit and not a huge downpour. that would suck. im looking forward to sushi tonight. yeh.. and everything else too. {{sigh}} im just gonna take my precious time in getting ready. i have 2 and half hours. yeah.. im just gonna take my time.

i di...

i didnt have to go to school today. score. instead i went to a choir field trip where we sat in the auditorium and listened to choirs sing and then embarrassed ourselves and probably made some people wish they were deaf... woohoo.after that.. we went to lunch on 119 where theres a bunch of places to eat... the buses parked at mcdonalds and we all just fanned out along the road going to whichever food place we wanted. so me and a couple of others decided to go to taco bell across the street. since the street had no pedestrian walkways... we just made a dash for it when our light was green... sadly by the time we got halfway across... the light turned yellow.. and so all twenty of us panicked across the street screaming our heads off like children... it was kind of chaotic. well and so i survived the choir trip and made it back to school during 7th period.. but i didnt go to 7th period... shh... actually i just chilled in the auditorium.. playing piano.. being silly and talking to people.. it was fun.. after school, i had a hair appointment.. to dye it.. cause ive got two blond streaks in the front and my roots were growing in tremendously. awe i sound so girlie. my roots!! uh! i have to dye my roots!yeah well that took forever.. finally i got out and i was hungry with no money so my mom treated me at crackle barrel.. yah. patricks been with cavan this whole time.. i bet theyre out being ninjas or something bad ass like that.. anyway i missed him all day due to the trip... i wish he were here.. but god i think i have physics test tomorrow.. shiznit i have to study for that crap and i have no idea. but its about the sound of music and stuff so i should be okay.. tomorrow night im going meeting kendall at the club. yah! i havent seen her in months.. i wonder how she is? oh yeah for those who dont know her.. shes my best friend from vball camp and she lives in Argo and we try to keep in touch.. but again.. our lives are busy as crap. its was fun telling my hair dresser that ive been with someone for seven months.. i felt so proud.. i was even prouder when she said, "He's good-looking." uh huh. so now im at home, staring at my physics book, bored as crap and i think i might go try on my prom dress... im just so excited. thats it for now.

i wok...

i woke up today feeling rotten and paralyzed and didnt want to come to school at all. but after about 30 minutes of my mom screaming "Go to school!!" i finally got up..... i thought id regret getting up but i suprisingly didnt... yeah and so my day has turned from dark to dim to bright as can be and im in a real good mood right now. I tried out for the talent show thingy and mrs. jebeles said "you are remarkable." gosh that made me feel real good.. cause usually i dont feel too remarkable... i mean i love writing songs.. i love playing piano.. i love singing... and sometimes im like "wow im pretty good." but lots of times i think that im not so good cause there are soooo many other people 100,000 times better than me. thats one reason i dont want to go to Belmont. because there are gonna be so many people there that are better than me... some many gifted people... so much competition. ha but i love competition. ill kick their asses...but actually i think that having people around me that are better than me might help me in the long run.. cause ill always want to do better.. yeh..another reason i dont want to go though is because 5 hours is a long drive and i love patrick and he'll be at auburn. but those are the only reasons... i really think Belmont is a good school for me.. but its so damn far away...anyway moving on... you know what i love? snuggling. its the best feeling in the world.. other than popping your toes.. im gonna go now because i want to snuggle with the guy on the couch... heh... im out.

i feel like posting now

didnt feel like writing much an hour ago but now im too hyper. today was a fantastic day. it was supposedly senior skip day.. but what do you know... everyone was there. it sure shows how committed we are. i feel so completely lazy this year. haha i think my dad gave up on the "restriction" thing. all weekend i was gone. but i dont think he cared cause he was at golf anyway. oh well works for me. i figured out what my employment status is... i am a scavenger... i linger around the house hunting for loose change and dollar bills. but hey it actually works.. as a matter of fact i just found $14... bling bling... i love how my family leaves their money just laying around... muahahahahaha.... ok my webcamara is staring at me... there... thats better... i had to turn it around... i cant stand when people stare at me.. i had a guy in my chemistry class two years ago that would stare at me non-stop. ahh i hated it! i dont think he liked me.. i think he wanted to kill me! hmm maybe he wanted to rape me, shoot me in the head, and then surgically remove my eyeballs... ha! well there really was a guy who did that on detective files last night. i need to stop watching tv so late at night. info commercials drain my mind and there's nothing else on but creepy unsolved mystery type stuff or weird lifetime movies that suck you in. hm.. but that is the only time they play actual music videos on mtv. so its not so bad. for a brief two days i worked on my novel. but after that.. i was hit with writers block and i cant start on it again.. fucking writers block.. i was on a role too... one day im gonna get it published and make money and stop being a scavenger. hm.. i cant wait until i see underoath again.. im really in the concert mood right now... im so hyper i cant stand it.. at choir i was literally bouncing off the walls... you know what that means? tomorrows going to be a bad day and im gonna be tired and grumpy. my days always do that... they're WOOHOO TERRIFIC GREAT TO BE ALIVE and then they're... dam i hate this get me out of here kill everyone ahhhh.... i just cant win... well now that im thinking of it.. just out of the blue.. ive done a few pictures with my webcamera.. i got them here if you want to see it.. my art woohoo! if you dont then dont click it you jerk. we shall overcome.. we shall overcome... some day some day... i like tantrum of the muse. i want to find the lyrics to their songs... i cant find them ANYWHERE... if anyone knows where.. TELL ME.i think ill wear glasses tomorrow.. my contacts bother me.. perhaps i shouldnt sleep in them? you know i wish i had 20/20 vision. i feel so handicapped. ill probably be legally blind by the time im 30 years old. i started wearing glasses in third grade. third! oh well... it could have been worse.. my sister got her period in third grade... pphhhfffahahahaha... hm. prom is this weekend. i really cant believe.. im prepared. the first year i went.. i didnt get my dress until the week before.. but i got everything down to the last detail this year.. perhaps im just too excited.. perhaps im just more organized this year.. perhaps my date is just really hott and fine and i love him a lot and cant wait... :) yeah thats it...

today.....

today... everything was fine fine fine.

i like this song :)

Just a day,Just an ordinary day.Just tryin to get by.Just a boy,Just an ordinary boy.But he was looking to the sky.And as he asked if i would come alongI started to realize-That everyday you find Just what he is looking for,Like a shooting star he shines.He said take my hand,Live while you canAnd if we walk now we will divide and conquer this land.And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary wordsof the lated did not feelFor i felt what i had not felt beforeYoud swear thsoe words could heal.And i as looked up into those eyeHis vision borrowed mine.And to know hes no stranger,For i feel i've held him for all of time.And he said take my hand,Live while you canAnd if we walk now we will divide and conquer this land.Divid and conquer this land.Please come with me,See what i see.Touch the stars- for time will not wait.Time will not flee.And you must be, Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.As i wake in bedAnd the boy, that ordinary boy.Or was it all in my head?And he asked if i would come alongIt all seemed so real.But as i looked toward the door,I saw that boy standing there with a deal.And he said he my take my hand,Live while you can,And we walk now we will divide and conquer this land.Divide and conquer this landJust a day, just an ordinary dayJus tryin to get by.Just a boy, Just an ordinary boy.But he was looking to the sky.

sigh

i hope he's alright.

the days never end

well. today i got my internet back and it will go faster than ever before. im sitting at home waiting for mandii to get here. hm. i just burnt some pizza and i have a bad taste in my mouth. my dad just saw my grades and im on "restriction" whatever that means... and is that better or worse than being grounded? he says ill have to help around the house and stuff. dangit i already clean up dog poop all over the place. oh well i shouldnt complain so much. my moms mad cause ive been absent for 30 days of school. she thinks ive been skipping. ive only skipped about... 5 days. that mean that the school is wrong but i dont want to have my mom come investigate my file of absences and her to find all the forged late notes i've signed. that would not be fun to deal with. perhaps i can burn down the school. then there would be no evidence. what a great idea. heh. 4 more weeks of school left. i want to graduate tommorrow!! {{whine}} it feels like summer. it was a whooping 80 degrees outside today. i want to swim. except my pool is green and dirty. yuck. my prom dress is pretty. :) (well that was random) its blue and black and has stars on it. patricks gonna look real good in his gray tux. yes. prom is gonna be right next to a widespread panic show. dang it. im going to be surrounded by damn hippis! my best friend is a hippi. not a real hardcore hippi but i think she wants to be. and her boyfriends a punk. Anarchy in the UK. blah. i dunno what the hell i am. im jill franklin. go me. i dont have a lot of real wholesome friends. perhaps i only hide and try not to get close to many people cause i know im moving away in four months and i'll already be hurt by being seperated from my boyfriend and best friend. or perhaps my school is just full of a bunch of idiots who dont care why or how they hurt people. mandii was complaining today about how some trailor trash girls were yelling in the parking lot saying "fuck you!" "nooo... fuck YOU" "NO NO.. FUCK you" and that was the whole fight. people are lame sometimes. i cant wait to get out of highschool. i cant wait until college comes and goes and then im married and live in north carolina with two kids. hmm... i plan too much. i love patrick!

computer works!

hey. jill here. well my internet has been crazy that last few weeks. my family has been remodeling the basement leaving me no sanctuary to go to. They unhooked the computer and if that wasn't torture enough, the computer decided not to work when they plugged it back in. GAH! but for a few brief moments the internet is working today and im excited so im writing in my livejournal. i'll be writing more later when my computer gets totally fixed because its just running real slow today. so im gone for now. bye.<img

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ouch. my finger.

hey. well yay i have a live journal now. yipee. whatever. um today started out not so good. well the not so good part happened last night when i foolishly decided to make my own dinner: roast beef hash. well when i was opening the can BAM SCRAP yah.. my thumb was nearly cut off and so i had this deep gash on my finger and i started yelling out profanity (thank god no one was home) and as i held my bleeding thumb under the faucet, my sister's pug was just standing there grinning at me with her head tilted to the side. and so i cussed at Pheobe (the pug) because i just really needed someone to blame for my stupidity. so then i started looking for a bandaid in the medecine cabinet which i think there is a bandaid thief lerking around our house because i couldnt find a single one. well and as i was doing this, i had to pull my hand from the sink and blood was dripping all over the floor and counters and Pheobe was trying to lick it up thinking it was food or something... gross... so then i finally found a foot long strip of gauze and so i wrapped it up a hundred times hoping that it wouldnt bleed through. gosh it hurt so badly. so then to calm down i started watching tv and fell asleep and only woke up when it was 11:00 and i realized i had a monster physics test the next morning. so i studied for a little while with my bleeding gauzed thumb and at 12:30 i finally gave up. well this morning, i woke up and my thumb was doing a little better, but i wasnt, cause i knew i was going to fail a physics test today. yay! so i just stayed in bed and decided that maybe i'd just sleep through it. so when my mom came in to rant and rave about me not getting up, i just pretended i was in a coma and moaned and coughed and said "ouch momma. my finger hurts and its bleeding really badly." and gave her my tired puppy face. sooo... she let me sleep until 10:45 and i was content. well then i came to school and the day went by as it usually does. then i came home and my dad had to pick me up cause he took my car keys away because i had lost my chevron card and had no way to pay gas. gah i need a job. so i've been without a car for 3 days. BUT. HA!!! when i came home.... guess what I found... yes... the chevron card. YES! yeah so when he gets home, im gonna float it in front of his face and be like "HA i told you i'd find it. HA. you thought i was stupid didnt yah.. HA" and then poke him on the shoulder cause thats what he does to show people who is boss. well so my day is getting better... although its hard to type right now with this massive bandaid (we finally got some) on my thumb. yeh, the cut is really deep and ugly... i think i might take a picture of it. how exciting. but now im off now to go poke my dad cause i think he's home. then.. uh i dunno what im doing? think ill call patrick or something. well wow this is a lot easier than my stinking retarded website on angelfire. FINALLY.