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i woke up today feeling rotten and paralyzed and didnt want to come to school at all. but after about 30 minutes of my mom screaming "Go to school!!" i finally got up..... i thought id regret getting up but i suprisingly didnt... yeah and so my day has turned from dark to dim to bright as can be and im in a real good mood right now. I tried out for the talent show thingy and mrs. jebeles said "you are remarkable." gosh that made me feel real good.. cause usually i dont feel too remarkable... i mean i love writing songs.. i love playing piano.. i love singing... and sometimes im like "wow im pretty good." but lots of times i think that im not so good cause there are soooo many other people 100,000 times better than me. thats one reason i dont want to go to Belmont. because there are gonna be so many people there that are better than me... some many gifted people... so much competition. ha but i love competition. ill kick their asses...but actually i think that having people around me that are better than me might help me in the long run.. cause ill always want to do better.. yeh..another reason i dont want to go though is because 5 hours is a long drive and i love patrick and he'll be at auburn. but those are the only reasons... i really think Belmont is a good school for me.. but its so damn far away...anyway moving on... you know what i love? snuggling. its the best feeling in the world.. other than popping your toes.. im gonna go now because i want to snuggle with the guy on the couch... heh... im out.

i feel like posting now

didnt feel like writing much an hour ago but now im too hyper. today was a fantastic day. it was supposedly senior skip day.. but what do you know... everyone was there. it sure shows how committed we are. i feel so completely lazy this year. haha i think my dad gave up on the "restriction" thing. all weekend i was gone. but i dont think he cared cause he was at golf anyway. oh well works for me. i figured out what my employment status is... i am a scavenger... i linger around the house hunting for loose change and dollar bills. but hey it actually works.. as a matter of fact i just found $14... bling bling... i love how my family leaves their money just laying around... muahahahahaha.... ok my webcamara is staring at me... there... thats better... i had to turn it around... i cant stand when people stare at me.. i had a guy in my chemistry class two years ago that would stare at me non-stop. ahh i hated it! i dont think he liked me.. i think he wanted to kill me! hmm maybe he wanted to rape me, shoot me in the head, and then surgically remove my eyeballs... ha! well there really was a guy who did that on detective files last night. i need to stop watching tv so late at night. info commercials drain my mind and there's nothing else on but creepy unsolved mystery type stuff or weird lifetime movies that suck you in. hm.. but that is the only time they play actual music videos on mtv. so its not so bad. for a brief two days i worked on my novel. but after that.. i was hit with writers block and i cant start on it again.. fucking writers block.. i was on a role too... one day im gonna get it published and make money and stop being a scavenger. hm.. i cant wait until i see underoath again.. im really in the concert mood right now... im so hyper i cant stand it.. at choir i was literally bouncing off the walls... you know what that means? tomorrows going to be a bad day and im gonna be tired and grumpy. my days always do that... they're WOOHOO TERRIFIC GREAT TO BE ALIVE and then they're... dam i hate this get me out of here kill everyone ahhhh.... i just cant win... well now that im thinking of it.. just out of the blue.. ive done a few pictures with my webcamera.. i got them here if you want to see it.. my art woohoo! if you dont then dont click it you jerk. we shall overcome.. we shall overcome... some day some day... i like tantrum of the muse. i want to find the lyrics to their songs... i cant find them ANYWHERE... if anyone knows where.. TELL ME.i think ill wear glasses tomorrow.. my contacts bother me.. perhaps i shouldnt sleep in them? you know i wish i had 20/20 vision. i feel so handicapped. ill probably be legally blind by the time im 30 years old. i started wearing glasses in third grade. third! oh well... it could have been worse.. my sister got her period in third grade... pphhhfffahahahaha... hm. prom is this weekend. i really cant believe.. im prepared. the first year i went.. i didnt get my dress until the week before.. but i got everything down to the last detail this year.. perhaps im just too excited.. perhaps im just more organized this year.. perhaps my date is just really hott and fine and i love him a lot and cant wait... :) yeah thats it...

today.....

today... everything was fine fine fine.

i like this song :)

Just a day,Just an ordinary day.Just tryin to get by.Just a boy,Just an ordinary boy.But he was looking to the sky.And as he asked if i would come alongI started to realize-That everyday you find Just what he is looking for,Like a shooting star he shines.He said take my hand,Live while you canAnd if we walk now we will divide and conquer this land.And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary wordsof the lated did not feelFor i felt what i had not felt beforeYoud swear thsoe words could heal.And i as looked up into those eyeHis vision borrowed mine.And to know hes no stranger,For i feel i've held him for all of time.And he said take my hand,Live while you canAnd if we walk now we will divide and conquer this land.Divid and conquer this land.Please come with me,See what i see.Touch the stars- for time will not wait.Time will not flee.And you must be, Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.As i wake in bedAnd the boy, that ordinary boy.Or was it all in my head?And he asked if i would come alongIt all seemed so real.But as i looked toward the door,I saw that boy standing there with a deal.And he said he my take my hand,Live while you can,And we walk now we will divide and conquer this land.Divide and conquer this landJust a day, just an ordinary dayJus tryin to get by.Just a boy, Just an ordinary boy.But he was looking to the sky.

sigh

i hope he's alright.

the days never end

well. today i got my internet back and it will go faster than ever before. im sitting at home waiting for mandii to get here. hm. i just burnt some pizza and i have a bad taste in my mouth. my dad just saw my grades and im on "restriction" whatever that means... and is that better or worse than being grounded? he says ill have to help around the house and stuff. dangit i already clean up dog poop all over the place. oh well i shouldnt complain so much. my moms mad cause ive been absent for 30 days of school. she thinks ive been skipping. ive only skipped about... 5 days. that mean that the school is wrong but i dont want to have my mom come investigate my file of absences and her to find all the forged late notes i've signed. that would not be fun to deal with. perhaps i can burn down the school. then there would be no evidence. what a great idea. heh. 4 more weeks of school left. i want to graduate tommorrow!! {{whine}} it feels like summer. it was a whooping 80 degrees outside today. i want to swim. except my pool is green and dirty. yuck. my prom dress is pretty. :) (well that was random) its blue and black and has stars on it. patricks gonna look real good in his gray tux. yes. prom is gonna be right next to a widespread panic show. dang it. im going to be surrounded by damn hippis! my best friend is a hippi. not a real hardcore hippi but i think she wants to be. and her boyfriends a punk. Anarchy in the UK. blah. i dunno what the hell i am. im jill franklin. go me. i dont have a lot of real wholesome friends. perhaps i only hide and try not to get close to many people cause i know im moving away in four months and i'll already be hurt by being seperated from my boyfriend and best friend. or perhaps my school is just full of a bunch of idiots who dont care why or how they hurt people. mandii was complaining today about how some trailor trash girls were yelling in the parking lot saying "fuck you!" "nooo... fuck YOU" "NO NO.. FUCK you" and that was the whole fight. people are lame sometimes. i cant wait to get out of highschool. i cant wait until college comes and goes and then im married and live in north carolina with two kids. hmm... i plan too much. i love patrick!

computer works!

hey. jill here. well my internet has been crazy that last few weeks. my family has been remodeling the basement leaving me no sanctuary to go to. They unhooked the computer and if that wasn't torture enough, the computer decided not to work when they plugged it back in. GAH! but for a few brief moments the internet is working today and im excited so im writing in my livejournal. i'll be writing more later when my computer gets totally fixed because its just running real slow today. so im gone for now. bye.<img

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